We Lost Our Baby

Words that no parent should have to say. As many of you know if you follow along on Instagram we told the world last night that we lost our baby boy at 18 weeks pregnant. The story of Liam James is long and complicated and I will eventually talk about the entire journey but for now, I leave you with our tribute from last night so it can live here on the blog forever. As hard as it is to talk about we feel better bringing up all the feelings and saying Liam’s name out loud. We would like to remember our son, he was real, he changed our lives forever and we are deeply grieving his loss.

Instagram Post 11/14/19

We lost our little babe. Our extra tiny, strong-willed warrior. Baby boy no. 2, so wanted and so loved. 18 weeks in my belly, forever in our hearts❤️
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I am literally numb, I’ve been dreading writing these words. I’ve been avoiding social media, it’s taking all I have to post this photo and write this – the most vulnerable post I’ve ever written.
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But as excruciating as it feels I want to remember every moment and every detail of his last day. The tears we shed, the way Alex held me and spoke to our boy, the last song I sang to him, “Three Little Birds,” never letting go of my belly, reassuring him everything would be ok, telling him how much mommy and daddy love him. How we prayed with the nurses and doctors over his life and passing.
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How Luca kissed my belly that morning and said “bye, baby”😢💔
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We were able to say our goodbyes for now, we marveled at his teeny footprints👣 and gave him a name.
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💙Liam James Covino💙
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He will always be our son and always be a part of our family. We love him like we love Luca. I know in my heart that one day I will meet my (now) two angel babies in Heaven and get to be their mama👼👼
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Many of you have been here too, experiencing loss, this nightmare and this unbearable grief. It SUCKS. I understand. I’ve never felt so much anguish, sorrow, compassion or grief in my life.
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But there is also love. A TON of love❤️ I have never felt wrapped in so much love, support and understanding. Our family and friends, every doctor, nurse, counselor and even strangers – they have shown so much warmth and compassion through this entire journey. And the love we feel for our boy, now and forever, is like no love I’ve ever felt.
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I want you guys to know we’ve appreciated your support, prayers and positivity over the last 6 weeks so so much. We are devastated by this loss but we are doing ok. We are healing, slowly, and most importantly we are at peace knowing Liam is truly in a better place.
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Thank you for your unwavering love and support during this difficult time❤️

PS, the name Liam comes from Irish origin and means “strong-willed warrior” and “protector.” Our boy was 100% those things. Tiny but mighty and forever our angel watching over us.