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Happy Anniversary to my guy 💕✨ We remembered Happy Anniversary to my guy 💕✨ We remembered this is actually our 20th year together (yes, high school sweethearts 💗), but 8 years married. Adding kids to the mix has tested us in ways I never imagined (& turned your beard gray 🤣) AND also deepened and strengthened our love and relationship in ways I never knew possible. Thank you for supporting my endeavors, being the best partner to me and sharing equally in the raising our family, you’re also the second best flower farmer I know 😉 Cheers to us!!
Still in summer mode over here ☀️✌️ Still in summer mode over here ☀️✌️
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Pregnancy insomnia is getting the best of me lately, but the right words about this experience finally came to me in the middle of the night so here ya go —

Hopeful to bring our third living babe home this fall and complete our family. Hopeful (not absolutely certain) because I know nothing is guaranteed. When you have been through losses like we have, or infertility, you unfortunately understand that the reality is not all rainbows and butterflies.

That a positive pregnancy test does not guarantee a baby in your arms.

That hearing a heartbeat once, or even a few times, does not equal a living baby 9 months later.

That “making it” to an arbitrary amount of weeks does not mean you’re “safe.”

That one good scan does not guarantee a healthy baby that will survive outside the womb.

That making an announcement, having a gender reveal, decorating a nursery, choosing a name, having a shower, still does not promise a thing.

If this sounds harsh or extreme to you that’s because it is. There’s nothing  NOT harsh or extreme about losing a baby or going through infertility.

The truth is there are no guarantees, and as loss and infertility moms we know this and understand it better than anyone. No one can tell you with 100% certainty how your journey is going to go or that it will end with a healthy, living baby in your arms. All we can do is take it day by day, and hold on to slivers of hope, which I will say is possible, and really freaking hard.

If you are in the thick of loss or infertility or pregnancy after loss I see you, I am you. It sucks and the isolation can be crippling. The only thing I can offer is do what you need to do for YOU and give zero f**ks to anyone who can’t comprehend the magnitude of this experience.

Be kind to yourself, be ruthless in your search for answers, be fierce in protecting your heart and be all around unapologetic. This is a part of your story and it sucks and however you choose to navigate it is valid AF 💪

Here’s to us, the worst girl gang ever, with the best and strongest (not by choice) members 💗
Our fourth babe, coming soon ✨ Footage shot by Our fourth babe, coming soon ✨

Footage shot by @jessicamicciophoto and beautifully put together by @filmsoflife_co, eternally grateful to you both for bringing this beautiful and priceless film to life!
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I can’t even count the number of times I use it during my flower truck events — cutting stems, cutting paper, cutting ribbon, screwing loose screws on the 1961 vintage VW frame! The convenience and versatility of this compact knife truly amazes me each time I use it!

With my Swiss Army knife in hand, I'm ready to take on any floral challenge that comes my way. 🌻💐🌷 #myVictorinox #partner 

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Never running out of uses for my @victorinoxnortha Never running out of uses for my @victorinoxnorthamerica Huntsman Swiss Army Knife 🌼🌸🌺 As a lover of all things floral, this Swiss Army Knife is my go-to tool for gardening and creating beautiful arrangements 🌿 Whether I’m tending to my flower farm, fixing up my flower truck or crafting a centerpiece for an event, it always does the job 👌🏼 Not to mention, as a busy mom, its versatility comes in clutch on a daily basis! No matter what I’m doing she’s always within reach 💐 #myVictorinox #partner #SwissArmyKnife #FlowerArranging #GardeningLife #MomLife
‘Lotus Love’ tulips coming back to life 🌷 W ‘Lotus Love’ tulips coming back to life 🌷 We’ve been pulling tulips by the truckload daily at the farm, it’s the midst of tulip mania and very hard for me to slow down but this time lapse was calling my name today!

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Feeling ready to meet this babe!!! Give us your be Feeling ready to meet this babe!!! Give us your best guesses for baby’s gender — it’s a surprise and I’ve had zero “feelings” this whole time 🤣 I love hearing everyone’s predictions and reasonings though! Also throw your best name choices at us for both boys and girls because we still haven’t narrowed anything down, third child energy, no time to think 🤪✌️#herewegoagain
Happy Anniversary to my guy 💕✨ We remembered Happy Anniversary to my guy 💕✨ We remembered this is actually our 20th year together (yes, high school sweethearts 💗), but 8 years married. Adding kids to the mix has tested us in ways I never imagined (& turned your beard gray 🤣) AND also deepened and strengthened our love and relationship in ways I never knew possible. Thank you for supporting my endeavors, being the best partner to me and sharing equally in the raising our family, you’re also the second best flower farmer I know 😉 Cheers to us!!
Still in summer mode over here ☀️✌️ Still in summer mode over here ☀️✌️
8 months of growing you little love 💕 Pregnanc 8 months of growing you little love 💕

Pregnancy insomnia is getting the best of me lately, but the right words about this experience finally came to me in the middle of the night so here ya go —

Hopeful to bring our third living babe home this fall and complete our family. Hopeful (not absolutely certain) because I know nothing is guaranteed. When you have been through losses like we have, or infertility, you unfortunately understand that the reality is not all rainbows and butterflies.

That a positive pregnancy test does not guarantee a baby in your arms.

That hearing a heartbeat once, or even a few times, does not equal a living baby 9 months later.

That “making it” to an arbitrary amount of weeks does not mean you’re “safe.”

That one good scan does not guarantee a healthy baby that will survive outside the womb.

That making an announcement, having a gender reveal, decorating a nursery, choosing a name, having a shower, still does not promise a thing.

If this sounds harsh or extreme to you that’s because it is. There’s nothing  NOT harsh or extreme about losing a baby or going through infertility.

The truth is there are no guarantees, and as loss and infertility moms we know this and understand it better than anyone. No one can tell you with 100% certainty how your journey is going to go or that it will end with a healthy, living baby in your arms. All we can do is take it day by day, and hold on to slivers of hope, which I will say is possible, and really freaking hard.

If you are in the thick of loss or infertility or pregnancy after loss I see you, I am you. It sucks and the isolation can be crippling. The only thing I can offer is do what you need to do for YOU and give zero f**ks to anyone who can’t comprehend the magnitude of this experience.

Be kind to yourself, be ruthless in your search for answers, be fierce in protecting your heart and be all around unapologetic. This is a part of your story and it sucks and however you choose to navigate it is valid AF 💪

Here’s to us, the worst girl gang ever, with the best and strongest (not by choice) members 💗
Our fourth babe, coming soon ✨ Footage shot by Our fourth babe, coming soon ✨

Footage shot by @jessicamicciophoto and beautifully put together by @filmsoflife_co, eternally grateful to you both for bringing this beautiful and priceless film to life!
Who says you can't mix function and beauty? My @vi Who says you can't mix function and beauty? My @victorinoxnorthamerica Swiss Army Huntsman knife has become my go-to tool for crafting stunning floral arrangements with ease and precision. It's versatile, reliable and always at hand, making it the ultimate gardening and floral companion.

I can’t even count the number of times I use it during my flower truck events — cutting stems, cutting paper, cutting ribbon, screwing loose screws on the 1961 vintage VW frame! The convenience and versatility of this compact knife truly amazes me each time I use it!

With my Swiss Army knife in hand, I'm ready to take on any floral challenge that comes my way. 🌻💐🌷 #myVictorinox #partner 

#SwissArmyKnife #flowertruck #FlowerArrangements #GardeningLife #BloomAndGrow #ToolOfTheTrade #ConvenientTools #FlowerPower #FlowerArrangementsMadeEasy #EfficiencyAtItsFinest
They’re alive 🤩🌷 Should I do more flower t They’re alive 🤩🌷 Should I do more flower timelapses!? Which flowers would you want to see next!?

#timelapse #timelapsephotography #timelapsevideo #timelapseflower #flowertime #tulips #tulipsofinstagram #growflowers #cutflowergarden #gardeninglife #tulipseason #flowersofinstagram #flowertime #floraleducation #flowers #flowerphotography #localflowers #slowflowers #happyflowers #peacefulgarden #flowergarden #gardeningmakesmehappy #aflowerfilledlife #flowerfarm #flowerfarmer #farmerflorist #flowerfarmerflorist #slowfloralstyle #ayearinflowers
Never running out of uses for my @victorinoxnortha Never running out of uses for my @victorinoxnorthamerica Huntsman Swiss Army Knife 🌼🌸🌺 As a lover of all things floral, this Swiss Army Knife is my go-to tool for gardening and creating beautiful arrangements 🌿 Whether I’m tending to my flower farm, fixing up my flower truck or crafting a centerpiece for an event, it always does the job 👌🏼 Not to mention, as a busy mom, its versatility comes in clutch on a daily basis! No matter what I’m doing she’s always within reach 💐 #myVictorinox #partner #SwissArmyKnife #FlowerArranging #GardeningLife #MomLife
‘Lotus Love’ tulips coming back to life 🌷 W ‘Lotus Love’ tulips coming back to life 🌷 We’ve been pulling tulips by the truckload daily at the farm, it’s the midst of tulip mania and very hard for me to slow down but this time lapse was calling my name today!

#timelapse #timelapsephotography #timelapsevideo #timelapseflower #flowertime #tulips #tulipsofinstagram #growflowers #cutflowergarden #gardeninglife #tulipseason #flowersofinstagram #flowertime #floraleducation #flowers #flowerphotography #localflowers #slowflowers #happyflowers #peacefulgarden #flowergarden #gardeningmakesmehappy #aflowerfilledlife #flowerfarm #flowerfarmer #farmerflorist #flowerfarmerflorist #slowfloralstyle #ayearinflowers
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Between the knife, saw, corkscrew and screwdriver I’ve been using her multiple times a day both at home and in the garden; not to mention she’s equipped with 15 total tools, including a scissor and tweezer, AND she’s compact enough to fit right in my pocket or purse, she comes everywhere with me! #myVictorinox #sponsored
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We Lost Our Baby

November 15, 2019 / Baby Loss, Mom & Baby

We lost our baby and it has been so hard. Today I am sharing with you that we lost our baby and how I feel. Come learn about our journey. We Lost Our Baby

Words that no parent should have to say. As many of you know if you follow along on Instagram we told the world last night that we lost our baby boy at 18 weeks pregnant. The story of Liam James is long and complicated and I will eventually talk about the entire journey but for now, I leave you with our tribute from last night so it can live here on the blog forever. As hard as it is to talk about we feel better bringing up all the feelings and saying Liam’s name out loud. We would like to remember our son, he was real, he changed our lives forever and we are deeply grieving his loss.

Instagram Post 11/14/19

We lost our little babe. Our extra tiny, strong-willed warrior. Baby boy no. 2, so wanted and so loved. 18 weeks in my belly, forever in our hearts❤️
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I am literally numb, I’ve been dreading writing these words. I’ve been avoiding social media, it’s taking all I have to post this photo and write this – the most vulnerable post I’ve ever written.
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But as excruciating as it feels I want to remember every moment and every detail of his last day. The tears we shed, the way Alex held me and spoke to our boy, the last song I sang to him, “Three Little Birds,” never letting go of my belly, reassuring him everything would be ok, telling him how much mommy and daddy love him. How we prayed with the nurses and doctors over his life and passing.
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How Luca kissed my belly that morning and said “bye, baby”😢💔
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We were able to say our goodbyes for now, we marveled at his teeny footprints👣 and gave him a name.
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💙Liam James Covino💙
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He will always be our son and always be a part of our family. We love him like we love Luca. I know in my heart that one day I will meet my (now) two angel babies in Heaven and get to be their mama👼👼
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Many of you have been here too, experiencing loss, this nightmare and this unbearable grief. It SUCKS. I understand. I’ve never felt so much anguish, sorrow, compassion or grief in my life.
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But there is also love. A TON of love❤️ I have never felt wrapped in so much love, support and understanding. Our family and friends, every doctor, nurse, counselor and even strangers – they have shown so much warmth and compassion through this entire journey. And the love we feel for our boy, now and forever, is like no love I’ve ever felt.
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I want you guys to know we’ve appreciated your support, prayers and positivity over the last 6 weeks so so much. We are devastated by this loss but we are doing ok. We are healing, slowly, and most importantly we are at peace knowing Liam is truly in a better place.
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Thank you for your unwavering love and support during this difficult time❤️

PS, the name Liam comes from Irish origin and means “strong-willed warrior” and “protector.” Our boy was 100% those things. Tiny but mighty and forever our angel watching over us.

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Happy Anniversary to my guy 💕✨ We remembered Happy Anniversary to my guy 💕✨ We remembered this is actually our 20th year together (yes, high school sweethearts 💗), but 8 years married. Adding kids to the mix has tested us in ways I never imagined (& turned your beard gray 🤣) AND also deepened and strengthened our love and relationship in ways I never knew possible. Thank you for supporting my endeavors, being the best partner to me and sharing equally in the raising our family, you’re also the second best flower farmer I know 😉 Cheers to us!!
Still in summer mode over here ☀️✌️ Still in summer mode over here ☀️✌️
8 months of growing you little love 💕 Pregnanc 8 months of growing you little love 💕

Pregnancy insomnia is getting the best of me lately, but the right words about this experience finally came to me in the middle of the night so here ya go —

Hopeful to bring our third living babe home this fall and complete our family. Hopeful (not absolutely certain) because I know nothing is guaranteed. When you have been through losses like we have, or infertility, you unfortunately understand that the reality is not all rainbows and butterflies.

That a positive pregnancy test does not guarantee a baby in your arms.

That hearing a heartbeat once, or even a few times, does not equal a living baby 9 months later.

That “making it” to an arbitrary amount of weeks does not mean you’re “safe.”

That one good scan does not guarantee a healthy baby that will survive outside the womb.

That making an announcement, having a gender reveal, decorating a nursery, choosing a name, having a shower, still does not promise a thing.

If this sounds harsh or extreme to you that’s because it is. There’s nothing  NOT harsh or extreme about losing a baby or going through infertility.

The truth is there are no guarantees, and as loss and infertility moms we know this and understand it better than anyone. No one can tell you with 100% certainty how your journey is going to go or that it will end with a healthy, living baby in your arms. All we can do is take it day by day, and hold on to slivers of hope, which I will say is possible, and really freaking hard.

If you are in the thick of loss or infertility or pregnancy after loss I see you, I am you. It sucks and the isolation can be crippling. The only thing I can offer is do what you need to do for YOU and give zero f**ks to anyone who can’t comprehend the magnitude of this experience.

Be kind to yourself, be ruthless in your search for answers, be fierce in protecting your heart and be all around unapologetic. This is a part of your story and it sucks and however you choose to navigate it is valid AF 💪

Here’s to us, the worst girl gang ever, with the best and strongest (not by choice) members 💗
Our fourth babe, coming soon ✨ Footage shot by Our fourth babe, coming soon ✨

Footage shot by @jessicamicciophoto and beautifully put together by @filmsoflife_co, eternally grateful to you both for bringing this beautiful and priceless film to life!
Who says you can't mix function and beauty? My @vi Who says you can't mix function and beauty? My @victorinoxnorthamerica Swiss Army Huntsman knife has become my go-to tool for crafting stunning floral arrangements with ease and precision. It's versatile, reliable and always at hand, making it the ultimate gardening and floral companion.

I can’t even count the number of times I use it during my flower truck events — cutting stems, cutting paper, cutting ribbon, screwing loose screws on the 1961 vintage VW frame! The convenience and versatility of this compact knife truly amazes me each time I use it!

With my Swiss Army knife in hand, I'm ready to take on any floral challenge that comes my way. 🌻💐🌷 #myVictorinox #partner 

#SwissArmyKnife #flowertruck #FlowerArrangements #GardeningLife #BloomAndGrow #ToolOfTheTrade #ConvenientTools #FlowerPower #FlowerArrangementsMadeEasy #EfficiencyAtItsFinest

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