Grief is Love With No Place to Go

Instagram Post 12/2/19

While picking out our Christmas tree over the weekend we saw a rainbow cloud in the sky. I feel like they are more rare than rainbows and it was pretty tiny as far as clouds go. Tiny and rare, exactly like Liam. Yes it’s hard carrying on with life as “normal” when your world was turned upside down. The pain is constant, you look for comfort everywhere, but you do carry on. Seeing a rainbow/rainbow cloud seems like such a small thing but it brought us a lot of comfort as we were driving around, searching for our tree, as a family. Our baby was there with us❤️

This is just a reminder to whoever needs to hear it: You’re allowed to grieve in whatever way works for you. There is no handbook for grief. There is no set amount of time you will grieve for. The pain doesn’t go away, you just get better at living with it. For me, I want to talk about Liam, talk openly about what I’m feeling and share our experience, both in person with friends/family and here on my blog.

It’s ok to share what you’re going through, it’s ok to see signs and find comfort in the the little things, and it’s definitely ok to allow yourself feel the sadness and grief. It sucks. Loss really does suck and the sorrow just seems like it will swallow you whole some days. I recently found comfort in a quote I found about how grief just means you loved someone deeply.

“Grief, I’ve learned, is really love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot give. The more you loved someone, the more you grieve. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes and in that part of your chest that gets empty and hollow feeling. The happiness of love turns to sadness when unspent. Grief is just love with no place to go.” —Jamie Anderson